Showing posts from February, 2006


This is my worst nightmare. I'm in the bus and going to a disable children's house called Seri Mengasih. It's a fun journey, discussing with my friends Sylves about microbacteria, but still i cannot concentrate on him, because i'm thinking of something else.... Do you have your own phobia? i mean something that you really afraid. Insects, animals, a condition maybe. Hmm, i have a lot for sure. I'm not a phobic man, but certain thing i cannot even look at or touch. Some insects really frightening me such as a 'more than 4 legs' insects. Or animals. I really hate them. Maybe my past history or experience cause this. But this is common, nothing special about this kind of phobia. Some people phobia of height, and i don't know why they become like that but i'm the same. Why i hate more than 4 leg's animals? This is all about our cerebral cortex function...our cerebral cortex tell us to hate this thing. One is really unique for me is.. i'm a childo

To have something is to lose something

Never surrender. That's all i know that i can do. I won't give up. At first, to have something is to lose something for me is a rubbish sentence.We can have anything in this world if we work hard without losing something. It's the payment for our hardwork. But still this philosophy is haunting me. I love philosophy about life. I love when someone describing our life using anything that exist in this world. If we look deeper, we sure cannot find the true meaning of life, but we can describe it the way we want to. That's why i love to think about something, anything that i saw, i feel, and i experience. Lots of thing happen in my life for this 19 years. Well, i'm going up to 20 years old a few days onwards. Hmm, 20 years old. what should i do on my 20th birthday? I sit back again and i start to remember each birthday celebration that i had. I can remember it clearly. Sometimes blur because i'm confuse about my past birthday celebration. It's somekind like

Light Fiesta ( 18/02/2006 )

Another Saturday night, but it seems that this one will never become boring as before. Well, me and a few of my friends already bought a ticket to Fiesta Cahaya or Light Fiesta. I didn’t know actually what this fiesta for… I know that they will be a lot of beautiful light, maybe, and a lot of dancing. It is one of the Indian celebrations, and I didn’t know actually why it is held. But it sure will fill empty Saturday night. I hope that this fiesta is better than Pesta Angpow ( Chinese celebrations) that held a month before. And if I compare Pesta Angpow preparations is much better than this Light Fiesta. But I’m still waiting for a lot of surprise and excitement in it. Well, to be honest, lots of my friends said that Pesta Angpow is boring…and last year Light Fiesta is sucks, thus as an hypothesis, this year Light Fiesta also must be sucks. Light Fiesta and Pesta Angpow were held every year here in Universiti Malaysia Sabah by two differenet community that are India and Chinese communi

When it come to music

When it come to music i'm the first one who'll be there. And in this few weeks, i'm so busy studying medicine, doing assigment and thinking about exam. One night, I play the classical song 'Simple Regret' (only halfway) then i stop cause my finger cannot press the 12th fret correctly. it produce a sound sound. Then i try again and again. A few minutes later my roommate play a song called 'Photo souevenir' a classical frace song and it was very impressive. Now its the time to say.... i'm losing out my ability. Now i realize, my hand not so soft in playing a guitar like before. Why? I take it positively, it's because i did not practice a lot in playing guitar like my roomate ( maybe science social got more time to relax and play guitar). I remember what my 'guitar teacher' said to me 2 years ago, "if you want to play like hemmet, all you have to do is practice". Keke... I remember the first ti

Joy of riding bus

Some people think I'm weird, because i wait for bus every day.... What kind of sentence is that? There is nothing weird about a guy who love to ride bus rather than take a lift with his friends car or motorcyle. Almost all of my friends already have their own transport today. They no longer for bus every morning. I have a few friends with me waiting for bus every morning. Sometimes i wait for bus with my roomate. Many people told me to go and buy one vehicle for myself but i say no. If i want to ride a car to the class or ride a motorbike, i can just ask a lift from my friends. But i don't want to. Because, after entering Universiti Malaysia Sabah, I finally discovered some feeling, a satiety feeling when riding a bus. Before this, when i was still in my hometown Labuan, i seldomly ride a bus because i have my own car. So everywhere i go, i use my car. I think driving is very fun. I like driving. I drive a lot on weekend, went to town, Beach, everywhere around Labu