Showing posts from October, 2007

Dying now and inside.

Somehow, my brain start to forget facts easily. I read and read again all the facts in my lecture note and book but it keeps forgetting them. Haha. I am not that easy to remember like before i guess. But something is going on with my mind. My brain always bombarded by the things that happen before that keeping me afraid, sad, shame, angry, like all that things just happen in front of me once again. They said bad memories are hard to forget. But i did not know that bad memories can be recall back like this. So drastic until i can woke up from my sleep just to remember something that i do not want to remember. Things that happen up to 5 years ago appear back in my mind and i can totally feel what i feel at the time when everything happen. I do not want to care about it but electrical impulse keep traveling to my brain without control. That is why i cannot concentrate much within this few weeks. haha. Sometime i feel that i am going to be crazy if a bad memory in your life